It would seem reasonable to start at the beginning. Truly, it is the beginning; however, the beginning of a new adventure, a major change in my life, has meant that something had to come to an abrupt end. So maybe I should start at the end.
I quit my job!
Big deal, right!?!?! Lots of people quit their jobs or lose their jobs. But…how many people quit their job when they have nothing else waiting for them? How bad does a job have to get to leave when there is no other source of income lined-up. I am sure, the more you read this, the crazier I sound. I wonder how crazy I am for making a decision like this.
It is amazing how much emotion comes with a decision like this, even when it is a choice. There is fear, relief, anger, sadness. A flood of emotions has submerged me in the last few days since submitting my resignation. I am afraid of what the future looks like. I haven’t known anything except this company for my entire career, 20 years. Yet, there is an enormous burden that has been lifted, stresses that are melting away. I will miss my amazing team. We were all very close. I really love the job (most of it). Not to sound arrogant, but I was pretty good at it too. In the end, it is true what they say….you rarely leave a job, you leave a manager.
So…..do I really need to write a blog about this….NO. Of course I don’t. Then why am I doing this…?????
Partly for the therapy to help me embrace this choice. Partly to share my journey as I seek out serenity and happiness. Somewhere along the way, I may be able to resonate with others that have been in my position. Maybe someone will read this and realize that they are not alone. Or….maybe you will get to see me finally find my smile.
Well, I still have a few days until the last day at my job, and the start of my new life. I figure I will just share throughout this change.